Ryan was here ...



My not-so-sweet nothings, mostly comprised of my feelings at losing my two-day-old son, Ryan David, to congenital heart defects, and to celebrate the arrival of Ryan's healthy little sister, Megan Elizabeth, and hopefully welcome another little miracle into our brood in July 2010.


Friday, February 13, 2009

"Let Me Be Myself"

I heard this this morning on my way to work, while sipping on my chai tea latte. Pretty accurately sums up the ongoing struggles and searches within myself.

I guess I just got lost
Bein' someone else
I tried to kill the pain
Nothin' ever helped
I left myself behind
Somewhere along the way
Hopin' to come back around
To find myself someday

Lately I'm so tired of waiting for you
To say that it's ok, but tell me
Please, would you one time
Just let me be myself
So I can shine with my own light
Let me be myself
Would you let me be myself

I'll never find my heart
Behind someone else
I'll never see the light of day
Living in this cell
It's time to make my way
Into the world I knew
Take back all of these times
That I gave in to you

Lately I'm so tired of waiting for you
To say that it's ok, but tell me
Please, would you one time
Let me be myself
So I can shine with my own light

And let me be myself
For a while, if you don't mind
Let me be myself
So I can shine with my own light
Let me be myself

That's all I've ever wanted from this world
Is to let me be me

Please would you one time
Let me be myself
So I can shine with my own light
Let me be myself
Please would you one time
Let me be myself
So I can shine with my own light
Let me be myself
For a while, if you don't mind
Let me be myself
So I can shine with my own light
Let me be myself
Would you one time ... oooh
Let me be myself
Let me be me ...

Songwriters: Arnold, Brad; Harrell, Todd; Henderson, Chris; Roberts, Matt;

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posted by Sherry @ 2/13/2009 10:39:00 AM  

4 Comments:

  • At February 22, 2009 1:29 AM, Blogger Me said…

    I wrote this for you and Ryan..

    "When you were here, I held you.
    For that simple fact I know,
    that a mother's love is deeper
    when she has to let it go..

    When she has to let it wander
    to a place so far away,
    holding tightly to the knowledge she will
    hold him there someday.

    There are moments when the time is slow,
    and others when it flies,
    and the passing of the months and days,
    will blur before her eyes,

    And life will ramble slowly on,
    and there will come a day
    when another sould will find her
    and will help her find her way,

    Not towards sorrow nor' towards healing,
    just a simple peace inside..
    A peace that brings the knoweldge that
    the universe is wide,

    Wide and endless, ever healing,
    ever just and kind and good,
    She will walk ahead to meet it,
    as she always knew she could.

    And yet I say,
    I truly know,
    these things are true,
    my dear,
    for the simple fact,
    I held you close,
    I loved you,
    you were here."

     

  • At February 22, 2009 11:19 AM, Blogger Sherry said…

    To "Me,"

    I can only hope you'll visit at least once more to read this heart-felt thank you. Your words have touched my soul deeply and I'm amazed that a stranger would write something so loving and moving for Ryan and me.

    Thank you.

     

  • At February 22, 2009 11:43 AM, Blogger Me said…

    I'm glad you like it, I hope that the balance of your life contains more joys than sorrows. I truly do.

    For what it's worth, I'm not a stranger, but I wanted you to know that I think about you often, and I hope that time heals all wounds (or at lest lessens them for you).

    I needed to do this for you.

    Hugs,
    Me

     

  • At February 23, 2009 9:39 AM, Blogger Sherry said…

    I know you're not a stranger, but I'll respect your wish to remain anonymous and graciously accept your gift of words.

    Thank you again. =)

     

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