Ryan was here ...

My not-so-sweet nothings, mostly comprised of my feelings at losing my two-day-old son, Ryan David, to congenital heart defects, and to celebrate the arrival of Ryan's healthy little sister, Megan Elizabeth, and hopefully welcome another little miracle into our brood in July 2010.

Friday, October 17, 2008

Celebrating our little boy

Last Saturday, we attended the fourth annual butterfly release, which is sponsored by the local hospital where Ryan was treated. After last year's horrible experience of receiving an already-dead butterfly to release, I was initially apprehensive to go this year. But, I didn't want last year's memory to put a damper on our yearly tradition, which is about Ryan and not me, so I put those bad feelings aside and instead celebrated the memory of our sweet little boy.

We, as parents with empty arms, couldn't have asked for a more perfect day to gather and honor our lost babies. There's something soothing about being surrounded by others who understand the sadness that's permanently taken hold of our heavy hearts. As we looked at the other families in attendance, we knew that they, too, had lost a precious baby. Some were heart babies, like Ryan, while others came too soon for their time.

We cried. We prayed. And, then we released our little butterfly and watched as he flitted up into the heavens.

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  • At October 20, 2008 4:07 PM, Blogger Doodle - said…

    That is a mighty pretty butterfly!

  • At October 20, 2008 10:14 PM, Blogger Robyn said…

    What a beautful butterfly. Sounds like a perfect day to remember Ryan's life!

  • At October 26, 2008 11:12 AM, Blogger Misty said…

    Oh sweetie! What a wonderful day! It's not fair that we need days like this tho. I guess I'm still a little bitter from my loss! Sorry. I think of you often and your little girl is absolutely beautiful!

  • At October 29, 2008 1:27 PM, Blogger Kyra said…

    Very beautiful. What a lovely way to remember sweet Ryan.

  • At November 03, 2008 10:28 AM, Blogger CLC said…

    Hi Sherry- Thanks so much for stopping by my blog. I am so sorry for the loss of your Ryan. What you wrote in a previous post about fearing people forgetting him because of the safe arrival of his sister is one of my biggest fears, in fact, I don't like to tell people that I am pregnant for that reason. I hope that it is not true, and just fear on our parts. My thoughts are with you.


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