Randomness

I hope Ryan doesn't think we're trying to replace him by trying to have another baby.

If he hadn't been taken from us, he probably would've been our one and only, and that would've been perfect.

Does he know how much Mike and I love him and miss him?

Does he know how his brief presence in my life has forever changed me?

I want to know what it's like to bring a healthy, living baby home.

I knew in my heart that he was going to be a boy, but I was too afraid to admit to that, because I was scared to be a mommy to a little boy.

There are moments when I look at Mike and my breath is taken away, because I cannot believe there is a person in this world who loves me above everything else.

When Mike hugs me, I always take in a long, deep breath of his scent because Ryan smelled the same as his daddy.

I'll never forget how my heart melted the first time Ryan looked at me and responded to my touch.

I hope God truly needed Ryan "up there" for a greater purpose than he would've served here.

Ryan's feet were perfect.

When Ryan died, part of me died along with him.